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6 entries in relationships
i spent most of my life trying not to disappoint people. saying yes, being useful, staying available, making myself easy to rely on. lately, i don’t care as much anymore. if someone leaves because i stopped exhausting myself to keep them comfortable, i think i can finally let them.
i don't think love has to be perfect. i just want to feel understood without having to explain every little part of myself. to be someone's future, but also someone they're curious about in the present. maybe that's what hurts the most. being loved, but still wondering if i'm truly seen.
the city disappeared into fog tonight. meanwhile, i’ve been trying to understand why the smallest things can hurt so much. learning about RSD made some things click, but knowing why i feel this way doesn’t make it any easier. i want someone to notice my silence, yet i’m the one choosing not to speak.
recently, even the smallest things have started bothering me. a late reply. a slightly different tone. a conversation that suddenly feels exhausting. i want people close, but somehow i keep pushing them away. idk if it's burnout, overthinking, or just my brain running out of patience. maybe i'm not losing interest in people. maybe i'm just tired.
A reflection on emotional silence, overthinking, and the quiet fear of reaching out when reassurance feels uncertain.
A reflection on how everything changes once you find the people you truly feel safe with — and why everyone else slowly fades into the background.