One little moment.
A little collection of ordinary days and changing perspectives.
Come as you are. Read at your own pace.
5 entries in growth
i spent most of my life trying not to disappoint people. saying yes, being useful, staying available, making myself easy to rely on. lately, i don’t care as much anymore. if someone leaves because i stopped exhausting myself to keep them comfortable, i think i can finally let them.
i don’t really know when it happened. somewhere between growing up, trying to keep up, and being tired for longer than i realised, i went from someone who was curious about everything to someone who struggles to start anything. the weird part is that i still want things. i just don’t always know how to reach the version of me who used to go after them.
i think one of the scariest things is knowing that parts of my life are already disappearing. old conversations. ordinary days. people i once knew closely. maybe that’s why i keep photos, messages, random notes, even things that seem completely unimportant. small proof that i was there. that this version of me existed. because losing a memory feels a little too much like losing a piece of myself.
A reflection on how everything changes once you find the people you truly feel safe with — and why everyone else slowly fades into the background.
A quiet reflection on control, planning, and the moment I realised that letting go doesn’t mean giving up who I am.