i used to be someone who could study for hours and get things done. now i can barely convince myself to open my laptop, even when i know exactly what needs to be done.
i've been looking back at my childhood, questioning my habits, and wondering if i've had adhd all along.
somewhere between growing up, moving abroad, and trying to finish my degrees, i think i've lost track of myself a little.
i don't know if i need a break, a change of direction, or just some help figuring things out.
maybe all three.
i’m slowly recovering from last week’s mental meltdown, except i can’t remember what triggered it. i remember how much it hurt, just not what happened. somehow, learning about rejection sensitive dysphoria made me look at my past a little differently. and now i’m wondering how many things i’ve forgotten while still carrying the feelings they left behind.