都无所谓了
不知道从什么时候开始,生活慢慢失去了原本的色彩。曾经对未来充满期待的自己,如今连迈出一步都觉得困难。想逃离,想重新开始,想被理解,也想被认真爱着。有时候觉得一个人也挺好,有时候却又羡慕别人拥有的归属感。明明知道自己不想继续这样生活,却不知道该从哪里改变。偶尔会想,如果一切能够重来,另一个世界的我,会不会活成小时候期待的模样。
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不知道从什么时候开始,生活慢慢失去了原本的色彩。曾经对未来充满期待的自己,如今连迈出一步都觉得困难。想逃离,想重新开始,想被理解,也想被认真爱着。有时候觉得一个人也挺好,有时候却又羡慕别人拥有的归属感。明明知道自己不想继续这样生活,却不知道该从哪里改变。偶尔会想,如果一切能够重来,另一个世界的我,会不会活成小时候期待的模样。
i went quiet for days, secretly hoping someone would notice. no messages. no check-ins. just me checking my phone over and over, waiting for someone to ask if i'm okay. i don't think i wanted attention. i just wanted to feel like my absence mattered to someone. and maybe that's what hurts the most. realising how badly i wanted to be looked for.